Trish, this doesn’t just resonate, it is almost identical to my experience and I suppose that of many others. Thanks for writing it, I took comfort in it, I struggle for the words but you nailed it.
Thanks so much, yes I’m on twitter but I dont use it much, never post on it really because it can get so nasty and also its linked to my work name so prefer to just read rather than post, thank you for sharing this again 🙏
Brilliant Trish, this is an excellent synopsis of how my life and thoughts have been ever since those awful dark days, I’m truly enlightened by your post, and hopefully stronger knowing we are certainly not alone, we have all finally found our tribe on Substack please may this continue.
I also started on twitter/X but gave it up because of the negative comments, not good for the soul!
Thank you Joan, it means the world to me that my post can resonate with others and help us all to feel we really aren’t alone at all. I’m only at the start of this Substack adventure and am already blown away by the wonderful people on here who write such incredibly powerful pieces, I feel like I have come home! ☺️🙌🏻
"Because the truth is, I’m not the same person I was five years ago. The world changed, and so did I. I’m more grounded, more aware, more spiritually open. But I’m also sadder. Sadder than I’ve ever been. It’s a strange duality. I’ve never felt more awake or more alive, and yet I’ve never felt more isolated."
Lost my 'freedom' cherry with the knowledge gained. Precisely why YHWH did not want Adam or Eve to touch the fruit from the tree of knowledge: once your eyes are opened, you can never go back. Now that I know what government is truly all about, there is not one day that goes by where I am totally carefree, and without the need to scrutinize all that is being said and done.
Well said. I had the same experience in 2020 when, upon researching Emergency legislation passed after 9/11, I realised that everything happening was not just evil, but legal under existing Emergency laws, acts and treaties. That it was pre-planned and no one was ever going to be punished for what was happening and going to happen. It is 2025 and I have sadly yet to be proven wrong.
You are right, and that explains the incredible lockstep nature of the whole business from march 2020 onwards, co ordination like I have never seen before, awful 😢
Every crisis is a manufactured problem to generate a “solution” by the perps. 9/11 to this day is a fairy tale as far as its actual narrative. You don’t have to commit the perfect crime…just be in charge of the investigation that follows. Covid was an exercise in control and surveillance.
Trudi I have just read your message, I am so deeply sorry. I can’t begin to imagine the grief of losing your beautiful son Benjamin in such an unbearable way. Thank you for finding the courage to share this, it’s a painful reminder of the hidden cost so many carried through lockdown, especially our young people. Your words will stay with me. I wish I could say something to bring you comfort, I am thinking of you and send you love and strength.
You are right Trudi, and we must keep speaking, remembering, honouring those lost and harmed in silence. The pain that you and Benjamin endured was invisible to the world, and it should never have been that way. I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through, and I’m so grateful you’re here, adding your voice to this. You’re not alone. 💔🕯️
Well said and so accurate. You are not alone. It is sad and remains a topic that cannot be broached-just brushed under the carpet. We have moved on but I’m not sure they have. That’s what makes it sad. My stance does not feel acknowledged-the fact that I spoke out to each and everyone of my family and friends, sometimes ridiculed, ignored or dismissed and labelled an anti-vaxxer or conspiracy theorist, in other words “you don’t know what you’re talking about”. The ultimate insult was my professor shutting me down when I dared to research the topic of covid for my degree. My dissertation sits unpublished in isolation, forgotten and academically irrelevant, despite the criticism and the eventual obligatory pass after concessions had been made. I wish I had not appeased them. My original work remains unseen yet still relevant. That was my dissertation that deserved an award, not the replaced version insisted upon by my examiners who should hold their heads in shame. Than you for posting your account and version of events, which resonates with me and deserves to be shared. I would do it all over again-that’s how I felt-that’s what counts! One day I will feel vindicated.
Thank you very much for commenting and sharing your experience with me, that sounds really tough. Perhaps you could share your dissertation on this platform so that it could be seen and appreciated by many? Stay strong, we are all in this together.
Thanks Trish. I appreciate your feedback. I need to think about how best to proceed and I had considered re-writing my original dissertation for publication, so could include some on this platform. It was 33000 words, so need to think about how best to do that. Hence a distilled version might work best on here. Thanks again for your encouraging words.
Please keep your original dissertation, I imagine it is inspired. The fact that your faculty could not accept it is further proof of the world we live in. If you don’t go along to get along you will be shunned. I’ve been seeing this for years but Covid made it all abundantly clear.
Thank you. It was inspired and I felt I had no choice but to honour my instinct to use what was unraveling in the world at that time and reflect this in my dissertation on altered states. How could I ignore what I saw as the biggest altered state yet? I think I was entering uncomfortable territory for my professor to handle and at one point she suggested a different supervisor but it would mean me starting again! Having already requested a supervisor at the beginning of my degree who was familiar with my topic, she would not approve him. I think it came down to money or the fact she didn’t know of him or wasn’t a professor in her field. She did admit that my topic was outside of her expertise, despite a background in anthropology and as director of the Alister Hardy trust archives, which housed over a century’s history of people’s religious spiritual experiences, the first scientist to do so, which I could not even access due to Covid. Yes, I would like to complete my original dissertation and have it published. I’m struggling with motivation but have freed up my time to focus on this. That’s my next challenge! Thanks for your response. Much appreciated.
Academia proved itself to be utterly captured during this time. I think the world needs to see your work, especially as it was being written as this whole thing unfolded, good luck with it, I do hope you can publish it some day 🙏
Trish , this is my story too ! I feel deeply sad , it’s a grief for a fairytale and a world I thought I lived in but turned out to be rotten to the core . I am on the outside of family now , which hurts , a lot ; especially since one of my sisters actively tried to stop me having anything to do with the rest of the family . It was like being denounced , labelled a heretic .
The upside is I have a deeper connection to some presence within me and around me . I know there is some purpose in making it through, I didn’t break , something in me flourished , held firm. I never knew I had it in me . It wasn’t a deliberate act of defiance just a deep knowing that it wasn’t right and it was anti life . I feel and know in my bones the sacredness of life and that in some way those of us that held the line have kept the sacredness alive . I have deep bonds with the people who I stood along side . I know I can trust myself and I know who I can trust . Sacred bonds were made , I feel sad for the loss of
Family though . Thank for sharing and for helping me to clarify where I am
I just love what you have written Debsylin, you have put it perfectly, it was indeed “anti life”, from start to finish, deliberately designed to break down the bonds between us, and deny us the thing that makes human life worth living, which is human connection. We are meant to be together, to talk and hug and laugh cry and dance and learn and work together, that is life in all its beauty and it was ripped away from us, and there is no doubt in my mind that evil lies at the heart of that. And it has made me more sure than I have ever been that there is surely also a force for good, and you gravitated and clung to that, you chose life, you chose humanity. I’m so sorry you’ve lost family because of all this, that’s not fair, all you can do is hope and pray that some day, people will come around, and realise what was done to them. I know exactly how you feel and what you mean about the deeper connection and awareness, it’s a hard won wisdom but it will sustain you, take care and thank you for your wonderful words. ♥️
I too have my list. It started with Profs Lee, Levitt then Ivor Cummings, the Nick Hudson-then I found friendship and support from Profs Kuldorf, Bhattacharya and Gupta.
I am currently writing my 5 year commemorative post which will include the scientific evidence known at the time
Very well written and thank you for how you describe what many of us felt. I also heard Lord Sumption speak and remember thinking surely this will change things. Then Mike Yeadon May God look after him, warned us that “the government is lying to you”. That did it. Any faith I had in any government entity was gone for all time. Then when the jabs were rolled out Prof Bridle a Canadian virologist spoke out on a TV program about a Japanese study that showed the spike did not stay in the muscle as we had been assured, but travelled all through the body. He was locked out of his own university lab for that.
The deception runs deep. “They” have moved on to the next stage - look at the WHO legislation that they have all signed up to. They have not gone away and neither have the jobsworths who support their criminality. Mass immigration is the current agenda followed by more censorship. Keep your powder dry.
Thanks Daithi, yes I agree. I couldn’t understand how people were just ignoring Jonathan Sumption’s completely reasonable and humane objections to the lockdown strategy, and felt sick to my stomach when I realised that his words were not going to influence things at all, because the fear that was instilled in people hikacked their critical thinking skills 😔 Mike Yeadon is great, another voice that has been sidelined in all of this, a brave man.
He could well have done. To be honest I bought into the vax at first too because I had massively trusted the medical establishment all my life, it never even occurred to me that they would recommend a vaccine that was dangerous, I’ve learned a lot since then 😢
I think we have to accept that not everyone of the dissenters got everything right but that in many cases awareness and understanding was and is a developing thing. The work of Sam and Mark Bailey in this development has been helpful for me in this developing understanding.
I first heard about the Japanese study and was concerned, but much later found out that Pfizer’s own data showed it traveled through out the body. That was truly eye opening. Yet, at least here in the states, we were told over and over again by the “experts” and the media that it would stay in the muscle of the arm. And it was “safe and effective”. Much like the bill of goods they tried to sell us on the necessity of the lockdowns, remote education and work are just as good, six feet apart is scientific, wear ing a mask protects you. I work in pediatric healthcare and within a month I realized that kids really didn’t get very sick from this, and the harm being caused by the lockdowns was real. They aren’t meant to live in isolation, they need interaction with other children, to be outside playing, off screens, living in the real world. Kids need to be out there living their lives. Fortunately for mine, in person school was an option in the fall of 2020, and by the spring of 21 we did away with useless masks, as kids were never going to wear them correctly anyway. I too would have thought I was crazy if not for finding other doctors who were questioning the narrative we were fed.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this, Trish. It follows my experience almost to the letter. I, too, came face-to-face with evil. At first I had no idea what it was. After the first lockdown here in Melbourne, I felt a sort of all-pervasive, suffocating cloud hovering over the city. Then when the injections arrived, the atmosphere in a city I had once loved became vicious and deadly. I will never forget how people behaved and I will never be the same. Nor will Melbourne.
Thank you so much for this. And yes, Melbourne was particularly egregious in its authoritarian treatment (was it Dan Andrews?) I remember seeing videos of the police beating up citizens and feeling horror at that - I can well understand how you feel, and yes that leaves its mark on you for sure 😔take heart, there is support on here, you’re not alone ♥️
Thanks, Trish. Yes, it was Dan Andrews and he unleashed his riot police and assorted authoritarian goons on old ladies, pregnant women, tradies, and anyone else who dared to protest the draconian madness. What got me then, and what still gets me now, is that so few people seemed to think that something super weird was going on, especially when the jabs appeared.
Yes that’s what still gets to me, that so many people thought, and still think, in so far as they really “think” at all, that what happened was just fine and dandy, and acceptable. Btw love the phrase authoritarian goons 😆
Yes, it is mindboggling that most people still think nothing strange happened from 2020 onwards and that the govt was simply trying to keep us all safe. But the world went full-barrel sci-fi and wo parallel realities were created. We can see theirs because we were once in it ourselves. But they can't see ours and sometimes I wonder if they ever will.
Another very big flag for me were the stories of Australians travelling at the time who were not allowed home. That was vicious cruel and beyond comprehension to me. And the treatment of those that did get home. Evil.
You have put into words what I felt and to this day still feel. I am changed- in less than 48 hours I will be on a plane to Corfu with one of my best friends and I will have fun, but lockdown and all its cruelties mean I do not look forward to things as I used to and I take nothing for granted. There is now a subtle barely noticeable underlying fear that everything I have can be taken from me and I don’t particularly like to travel too far from home. I was never like this but the stupid masking and the one way systems in shops, friends telling me I was wrong not to have the jab, being told to take it for my family - my response “I am doing this (ie resisting the jab) for my family!” - have left me without trust and faith in the world I once knew. Everyone around me were not prepared to think or question and that is worrying. My OH had a heart attack after his booster - he has taken no more. I still do not understand why he took the third just because a politician told him too! In one respect I am lucky - he respected my decision.
Thank you so much for your message. I feel the same way, you put it so well. That fear and the sense that so much trust has been lost… it’s something I carry too. I wish I had answers, but what I keep coming back to is this, the best antidote to all of this, the deception, the division and the harm, is to live a good life and to live it well, hope you have a lovely trip with your friend 🙌🏻
You have put into words what I felt and to this day still feel. I am changed- in less than 48 hours I will be on a plane to Corfu with one of my best friends and I will have fun, but lockdown and all its cruelties mean I do not look forward to things as I used to and I take nothing for granted. There is now a subtle barely noticeable underlying fear that everything I have can be taken from me and I don’t particularly like to travel too far from home. I was never like this but the stupid masking and the one way systems in shops, friends telling me I was wrong not to have the jab, being told to take it for my family - my response “I am doing this (ie resisting the jab) for my family!” - have left me without trust and faith in the world I once knew. Everyone around me were not prepared to think or question and that is worrying. My OH had a heart attack after his booster - he has taken no more. I still do not understand why he took the third just because a politician told him too! In one respect I am lucky - he respected my decision.
Thanks Trish, this really resonated. We need to keep writing and talking about this. "They" have not moved on because they haven't faced the truth. WE have changed, and have moved to a different, hopefully in some ways, better place. I certainly have become spiritually stronger in my Christian faith and my gifts of discernment have developed.
I liked your post. It brought back a lot of memories, all bad!
After the Covid hysteria and how so many people used it as a moral crusade to stamp out heresy and heretics, I have lost what little faith I had in the vast majority of humans.
It was particularly crazy with middle class women. Most of the rich and powerful seemed to just view it as theater where they played a part when on stage then went back to normal life offstage. The poor seemed to largely ignore it or embrace it half heartedly but the middle class, wow.
Daily I would get pounded into me how logic plays almost no role in the "thought" process.
As just one example, I remember people telling me that videos of empty hospital parking lots while the hospital was supposedly overflowing meant nothing.
So, yeah I became estranged from most of my friends. They got tired of me telling them it was all retarded and I lost respect for them and realized, like in China's cultural revolution, these were the people who would denounce me as a wrong thinker.
It was and still is the greatest theatre show on earth, possibly ever, and a very dark one at that. It is a monumental battle of truth versus outright criminal and psychopathic lies. I pray that more people will awaken from the propaganda induced trance they remain in. There are some hopeful signs but it is not moving fast enough.
Great piece. I find it hard to connect with anyone until I know they opposed the narrative and didn't believe the lies. As a result I'm alone with the exception of my wife and daughter. I have nothing but contempt for my parents and siblings who refuse to question. I lost all friends and professional colleagues. Connecting virtually like this is reassuring. Good luck to you and the awake people in your life. Never forgive never forget.
Thank you Matthew. I understand that instinct, I also feel disconnected from friends and family who bought into it all and still do. I still love them but our relationship feels superficial because we inhabit separate realities, it’s sad.
Yes, it's superficial at best. We can talk about the weather and that's it. I'm originally from Vancouver Canada but moved to SE Asia in 2010 and while the scamdemic wasn't easy or fun to live through here, and I had to give up a good job when I passed on the jabs, I can still work and have a career. Waking up has improved my life in many ways and I wouldn't go back to believing the lies even if I could. It's a bit sad to think that I will never trust doctors or health systems again (with the exception of physical injuries obviously), I'ts also liberating to realize that the solutions are with myself and my health depends on my decisions, and I feel that I've made better ones since 2020. The other day found that one of my colleagues holds similar views and so even today I'm less alone. This colleague - she's from Kenya - and she shared the scamdemic experience of working in the poor slums of her hometown during the day and coming home at night to hear via the media that in the area where she had been there were so many cases and deaths, when she had been there all day and realized that the people there were completely unaffected by any of it. It's still incredible to me that the normies are unable to perceive the lies.
I got a link from James Delingpole to your article btw.
Wow thank you, really thrilled that James Delingpole shared it. Yes we have to learn to live in this new reality now which in many ways can be a lonely place but is also strangely liberating and even beautiful 🙌🏻
You sound a bit like me. I had ten siblings. One, the eldest, died in 2022. Of the rest only a couple listened to me, that's something I suppose. Yet those two seem to have gone back to sleep. The rest completely ignored my messages and videos, not even acknowledging me. One did briefly but I think out of pity for her "stupid sister" because she still refused to hear a word. I tried for 3 - 4 years!,They're a weird bunch. They had a family reunion six months ago which I did not attend because as I told one of my brothers, I didn't want to be around people who weren't living in reality. I have nothing to say to them. I am disgusted in their cowardice and willingness to accept all the lies. Everything! Without question. The sad thing is, my brother who died was the only one who did start talking about it with me. I just know we'd be on the same page if he was here. Like you, I don't want to be around those who still, to this day, refuse to admit what took place and act as if everything is fine. It's not fine. It's not over. Sorry this is so depressing but I guess you already know it's not over. I had been following these lunatics for many years before the "Covid" scam which is why I knew it was indeed a scam. They're bringing in full blown Communism to the world. Sneaking it in. This is biblical prophecy unfolding yet many or most won't see it. That itself is prophecy. That the majority won't see it. Please continue with non compliance. The next time we will all be locked out of the system completely. I urge you and all to prepare accordingly. This is already too long. Sorry. I don't know who believes what but I put this out there, hoping others can see the evil for what it truly is. No mainstream churches will help, they're all on board. They promoted the poison and push for the one world Government and one world Religion. Again, sorry, but everyone needs the truth. We are now in a world of lies, something else that was foretold. I wish you well.
Thank you Jennifer. So sorry that you lost your brother 😢 please don’t apologise for what you say or think it’s depressing, the truth is liberating, stay strong and truly you’re not alone ♥️
Thanks for your comment. While I'm not Christian there is no question that the stories of the bible and the life of Jesus prefigured many events and forces we now struggle with. I'm optimistic that when they try operations like the covid scam more and more people wake up. So they sneak it in as you say but that slows the pace of the changes leaving more opportunities to resist, evade and not comply.
Hi Jennifer, I am so sorry for the loss of your brother, but comfort in knowing that he rests in the bosom of Abraham, awaiting His glorious return.
You are not alone in this. My husband and I have been following the government's tyranny in all of its forms since the days of Clinton. Back then computers were still DOS and we did not have the Internet. We relied on short wave radio programs. The Internet (or "splinternet"as they now call it), has been both a curse and a boon. Information is more readily available, both good and bad. It's much harder to hide the devious, underhanded methods of the terrorists in office now.
One thing I have found helpful to go back to from time to time is Pam Gregory, "The Big Picture 2026 to 2027" on the dreaded YouTube. She's an astrologer, and quite encouraging. Nice to step away and see things unfolding in such calm and reassuring company.
My story too Trish. I would add though that standing by my values and losing access to just about everything ( one memory-walking with friends to the pub who were happy to go inside and drink without me because "PAPERS PLEASE") was the best.
My spine is stainless steel and I can see their fear with detachment and compassion and a growing love. But I'm not to be fucked with now. People feel it. I command way more respect than before the shit show military coup d'état.
Trish, this doesn’t just resonate, it is almost identical to my experience and I suppose that of many others. Thanks for writing it, I took comfort in it, I struggle for the words but you nailed it.
Thank you so much, that means a lot to me. 🙌🏻
I shared the link to your article on Twitter. Are you on there Trish?
Thanks so much, yes I’m on twitter but I dont use it much, never post on it really because it can get so nasty and also its linked to my work name so prefer to just read rather than post, thank you for sharing this again 🙏
No worries, it’s a great piece. My Twitter handle is @TheJulesMcC if you want a nosy at the post and replies x
Aw you’re a star thank you! I’ve followed you on twitter there now, you’ll find me at @TrishMcC69 🙏☺️
Brilliant Trish, this is an excellent synopsis of how my life and thoughts have been ever since those awful dark days, I’m truly enlightened by your post, and hopefully stronger knowing we are certainly not alone, we have all finally found our tribe on Substack please may this continue.
I also started on twitter/X but gave it up because of the negative comments, not good for the soul!
Thank you Trish.
Thank you Joan, it means the world to me that my post can resonate with others and help us all to feel we really aren’t alone at all. I’m only at the start of this Substack adventure and am already blown away by the wonderful people on here who write such incredibly powerful pieces, I feel like I have come home! ☺️🙌🏻
At the risk of appearing lazy, your words are exactly what I want to say having just read this brilliant piece. I hope we are many.
Thank you Suzanne 🙏
"Because the truth is, I’m not the same person I was five years ago. The world changed, and so did I. I’m more grounded, more aware, more spiritually open. But I’m also sadder. Sadder than I’ve ever been. It’s a strange duality. I’ve never felt more awake or more alive, and yet I’ve never felt more isolated."
This paragraph captures it all for me.
Thank you Claire 🙏
Wonderful and resonated with me too! Why is it that some could see and feel this was a scripted act and others accepted it? Strange!
That question will haunt me for the rest of my life Alison 😔
Lost my 'freedom' cherry with the knowledge gained. Precisely why YHWH did not want Adam or Eve to touch the fruit from the tree of knowledge: once your eyes are opened, you can never go back. Now that I know what government is truly all about, there is not one day that goes by where I am totally carefree, and without the need to scrutinize all that is being said and done.
Ditto!
Me too
Well said. I had the same experience in 2020 when, upon researching Emergency legislation passed after 9/11, I realised that everything happening was not just evil, but legal under existing Emergency laws, acts and treaties. That it was pre-planned and no one was ever going to be punished for what was happening and going to happen. It is 2025 and I have sadly yet to be proven wrong.
You are right, and that explains the incredible lockstep nature of the whole business from march 2020 onwards, co ordination like I have never seen before, awful 😢
Every crisis is a manufactured problem to generate a “solution” by the perps. 9/11 to this day is a fairy tale as far as its actual narrative. You don’t have to commit the perfect crime…just be in charge of the investigation that follows. Covid was an exercise in control and surveillance.
I’m not, nor ever will be the same person as I was.
My son Benjamin took his life during lockdown 2020 aged 25.
I strongly believe that lockdown contributed to his death, as it did for many young people at that time.
18 people at his funeral ( the others had to watch on a livestream), face masks and socially distanced.
The chairs at York crematorium were screwed down to the floor.
As if losing my son wasn’t enough!
I will never forget or forgive those who voted for these cruel and inhumane policies.
“Lockdowns saved many lives” was quoted by ex MP Andrew Bridgen and many others in government.
I truly despise these people and the burning flames of hell are waiting for them!
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Trudi I have just read your message, I am so deeply sorry. I can’t begin to imagine the grief of losing your beautiful son Benjamin in such an unbearable way. Thank you for finding the courage to share this, it’s a painful reminder of the hidden cost so many carried through lockdown, especially our young people. Your words will stay with me. I wish I could say something to bring you comfort, I am thinking of you and send you love and strength.
Thanks Trish,
I just don’t want people to ever forget, especially as the mainstream media never once covered lockdown suicides.
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You are right Trudi, and we must keep speaking, remembering, honouring those lost and harmed in silence. The pain that you and Benjamin endured was invisible to the world, and it should never have been that way. I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through, and I’m so grateful you’re here, adding your voice to this. You’re not alone. 💔🕯️
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Well said and so accurate. You are not alone. It is sad and remains a topic that cannot be broached-just brushed under the carpet. We have moved on but I’m not sure they have. That’s what makes it sad. My stance does not feel acknowledged-the fact that I spoke out to each and everyone of my family and friends, sometimes ridiculed, ignored or dismissed and labelled an anti-vaxxer or conspiracy theorist, in other words “you don’t know what you’re talking about”. The ultimate insult was my professor shutting me down when I dared to research the topic of covid for my degree. My dissertation sits unpublished in isolation, forgotten and academically irrelevant, despite the criticism and the eventual obligatory pass after concessions had been made. I wish I had not appeased them. My original work remains unseen yet still relevant. That was my dissertation that deserved an award, not the replaced version insisted upon by my examiners who should hold their heads in shame. Than you for posting your account and version of events, which resonates with me and deserves to be shared. I would do it all over again-that’s how I felt-that’s what counts! One day I will feel vindicated.
Thank you very much for commenting and sharing your experience with me, that sounds really tough. Perhaps you could share your dissertation on this platform so that it could be seen and appreciated by many? Stay strong, we are all in this together.
Thanks Trish. I appreciate your feedback. I need to think about how best to proceed and I had considered re-writing my original dissertation for publication, so could include some on this platform. It was 33000 words, so need to think about how best to do that. Hence a distilled version might work best on here. Thanks again for your encouraging words.
I second that Trish
Please keep your original dissertation, I imagine it is inspired. The fact that your faculty could not accept it is further proof of the world we live in. If you don’t go along to get along you will be shunned. I’ve been seeing this for years but Covid made it all abundantly clear.
Thank you. It was inspired and I felt I had no choice but to honour my instinct to use what was unraveling in the world at that time and reflect this in my dissertation on altered states. How could I ignore what I saw as the biggest altered state yet? I think I was entering uncomfortable territory for my professor to handle and at one point she suggested a different supervisor but it would mean me starting again! Having already requested a supervisor at the beginning of my degree who was familiar with my topic, she would not approve him. I think it came down to money or the fact she didn’t know of him or wasn’t a professor in her field. She did admit that my topic was outside of her expertise, despite a background in anthropology and as director of the Alister Hardy trust archives, which housed over a century’s history of people’s religious spiritual experiences, the first scientist to do so, which I could not even access due to Covid. Yes, I would like to complete my original dissertation and have it published. I’m struggling with motivation but have freed up my time to focus on this. That’s my next challenge! Thanks for your response. Much appreciated.
Academia proved itself to be utterly captured during this time. I think the world needs to see your work, especially as it was being written as this whole thing unfolded, good luck with it, I do hope you can publish it some day 🙏
I would like to see your original dissertation please.
My journey is similar to most posters on here.
My email is: spayne6466@gmail.com
Trish , this is my story too ! I feel deeply sad , it’s a grief for a fairytale and a world I thought I lived in but turned out to be rotten to the core . I am on the outside of family now , which hurts , a lot ; especially since one of my sisters actively tried to stop me having anything to do with the rest of the family . It was like being denounced , labelled a heretic .
The upside is I have a deeper connection to some presence within me and around me . I know there is some purpose in making it through, I didn’t break , something in me flourished , held firm. I never knew I had it in me . It wasn’t a deliberate act of defiance just a deep knowing that it wasn’t right and it was anti life . I feel and know in my bones the sacredness of life and that in some way those of us that held the line have kept the sacredness alive . I have deep bonds with the people who I stood along side . I know I can trust myself and I know who I can trust . Sacred bonds were made , I feel sad for the loss of
Family though . Thank for sharing and for helping me to clarify where I am
Now . Thank you.
I just love what you have written Debsylin, you have put it perfectly, it was indeed “anti life”, from start to finish, deliberately designed to break down the bonds between us, and deny us the thing that makes human life worth living, which is human connection. We are meant to be together, to talk and hug and laugh cry and dance and learn and work together, that is life in all its beauty and it was ripped away from us, and there is no doubt in my mind that evil lies at the heart of that. And it has made me more sure than I have ever been that there is surely also a force for good, and you gravitated and clung to that, you chose life, you chose humanity. I’m so sorry you’ve lost family because of all this, that’s not fair, all you can do is hope and pray that some day, people will come around, and realise what was done to them. I know exactly how you feel and what you mean about the deeper connection and awareness, it’s a hard won wisdom but it will sustain you, take care and thank you for your wonderful words. ♥️
I too have my list. It started with Profs Lee, Levitt then Ivor Cummings, the Nick Hudson-then I found friendship and support from Profs Kuldorf, Bhattacharya and Gupta.
I am currently writing my 5 year commemorative post which will include the scientific evidence known at the time
I look forward to reading that Hugh. I call my list the Roll of Honour 🙌🏻☺️
Very well written and thank you for how you describe what many of us felt. I also heard Lord Sumption speak and remember thinking surely this will change things. Then Mike Yeadon May God look after him, warned us that “the government is lying to you”. That did it. Any faith I had in any government entity was gone for all time. Then when the jabs were rolled out Prof Bridle a Canadian virologist spoke out on a TV program about a Japanese study that showed the spike did not stay in the muscle as we had been assured, but travelled all through the body. He was locked out of his own university lab for that.
The deception runs deep. “They” have moved on to the next stage - look at the WHO legislation that they have all signed up to. They have not gone away and neither have the jobsworths who support their criminality. Mass immigration is the current agenda followed by more censorship. Keep your powder dry.
Thanks Daithi, yes I agree. I couldn’t understand how people were just ignoring Jonathan Sumption’s completely reasonable and humane objections to the lockdown strategy, and felt sick to my stomach when I realised that his words were not going to influence things at all, because the fear that was instilled in people hikacked their critical thinking skills 😔 Mike Yeadon is great, another voice that has been sidelined in all of this, a brave man.
And the rejection of the GBD was another red flag.
Absolutely it was!
did not Sumption strongly advise to do the vaccine(sic)? I thought he was worth listening to until he said that.
He could well have done. To be honest I bought into the vax at first too because I had massively trusted the medical establishment all my life, it never even occurred to me that they would recommend a vaccine that was dangerous, I’ve learned a lot since then 😢
I think we have to accept that not everyone of the dissenters got everything right but that in many cases awareness and understanding was and is a developing thing. The work of Sam and Mark Bailey in this development has been helpful for me in this developing understanding.
I’ll check them out thanks 🙏
I first heard about the Japanese study and was concerned, but much later found out that Pfizer’s own data showed it traveled through out the body. That was truly eye opening. Yet, at least here in the states, we were told over and over again by the “experts” and the media that it would stay in the muscle of the arm. And it was “safe and effective”. Much like the bill of goods they tried to sell us on the necessity of the lockdowns, remote education and work are just as good, six feet apart is scientific, wear ing a mask protects you. I work in pediatric healthcare and within a month I realized that kids really didn’t get very sick from this, and the harm being caused by the lockdowns was real. They aren’t meant to live in isolation, they need interaction with other children, to be outside playing, off screens, living in the real world. Kids need to be out there living their lives. Fortunately for mine, in person school was an option in the fall of 2020, and by the spring of 21 we did away with useless masks, as kids were never going to wear them correctly anyway. I too would have thought I was crazy if not for finding other doctors who were questioning the narrative we were fed.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this, Trish. It follows my experience almost to the letter. I, too, came face-to-face with evil. At first I had no idea what it was. After the first lockdown here in Melbourne, I felt a sort of all-pervasive, suffocating cloud hovering over the city. Then when the injections arrived, the atmosphere in a city I had once loved became vicious and deadly. I will never forget how people behaved and I will never be the same. Nor will Melbourne.
Thank you so much for this. And yes, Melbourne was particularly egregious in its authoritarian treatment (was it Dan Andrews?) I remember seeing videos of the police beating up citizens and feeling horror at that - I can well understand how you feel, and yes that leaves its mark on you for sure 😔take heart, there is support on here, you’re not alone ♥️
Thanks, Trish. Yes, it was Dan Andrews and he unleashed his riot police and assorted authoritarian goons on old ladies, pregnant women, tradies, and anyone else who dared to protest the draconian madness. What got me then, and what still gets me now, is that so few people seemed to think that something super weird was going on, especially when the jabs appeared.
“We can see theirs because we were once in it ourselves. But they can't see ours” that is so true!
Yes that’s what still gets to me, that so many people thought, and still think, in so far as they really “think” at all, that what happened was just fine and dandy, and acceptable. Btw love the phrase authoritarian goons 😆
Yes, it is mindboggling that most people still think nothing strange happened from 2020 onwards and that the govt was simply trying to keep us all safe. But the world went full-barrel sci-fi and wo parallel realities were created. We can see theirs because we were once in it ourselves. But they can't see ours and sometimes I wonder if they ever will.
Another very big flag for me were the stories of Australians travelling at the time who were not allowed home. That was vicious cruel and beyond comprehension to me. And the treatment of those that did get home. Evil.
You have put into words what I felt and to this day still feel. I am changed- in less than 48 hours I will be on a plane to Corfu with one of my best friends and I will have fun, but lockdown and all its cruelties mean I do not look forward to things as I used to and I take nothing for granted. There is now a subtle barely noticeable underlying fear that everything I have can be taken from me and I don’t particularly like to travel too far from home. I was never like this but the stupid masking and the one way systems in shops, friends telling me I was wrong not to have the jab, being told to take it for my family - my response “I am doing this (ie resisting the jab) for my family!” - have left me without trust and faith in the world I once knew. Everyone around me were not prepared to think or question and that is worrying. My OH had a heart attack after his booster - he has taken no more. I still do not understand why he took the third just because a politician told him too! In one respect I am lucky - he respected my decision.
Thank you so much for your message. I feel the same way, you put it so well. That fear and the sense that so much trust has been lost… it’s something I carry too. I wish I had answers, but what I keep coming back to is this, the best antidote to all of this, the deception, the division and the harm, is to live a good life and to live it well, hope you have a lovely trip with your friend 🙌🏻
Here is a substack written by one of thise who was prepared to challenge the madness https://open.substack.com/pub/rudolphrigger/p/what-the-great-cough-of-calamity?
You have put into words what I felt and to this day still feel. I am changed- in less than 48 hours I will be on a plane to Corfu with one of my best friends and I will have fun, but lockdown and all its cruelties mean I do not look forward to things as I used to and I take nothing for granted. There is now a subtle barely noticeable underlying fear that everything I have can be taken from me and I don’t particularly like to travel too far from home. I was never like this but the stupid masking and the one way systems in shops, friends telling me I was wrong not to have the jab, being told to take it for my family - my response “I am doing this (ie resisting the jab) for my family!” - have left me without trust and faith in the world I once knew. Everyone around me were not prepared to think or question and that is worrying. My OH had a heart attack after his booster - he has taken no more. I still do not understand why he took the third just because a politician told him too! In one respect I am lucky - he respected my decision.
Trish, you have exactly captured my experience, well written. You are and were not alone.
Thank you Michelle, I am starting to see that and it’s heartening 🙌🏻☺️
Thanks Trish, this really resonated. We need to keep writing and talking about this. "They" have not moved on because they haven't faced the truth. WE have changed, and have moved to a different, hopefully in some ways, better place. I certainly have become spiritually stronger in my Christian faith and my gifts of discernment have developed.
Thank you Amy, I feel the same, and I have also grown in my spirituality since all of this happened which has been a good thing ☺️
I liked your post. It brought back a lot of memories, all bad!
After the Covid hysteria and how so many people used it as a moral crusade to stamp out heresy and heretics, I have lost what little faith I had in the vast majority of humans.
It was particularly crazy with middle class women. Most of the rich and powerful seemed to just view it as theater where they played a part when on stage then went back to normal life offstage. The poor seemed to largely ignore it or embrace it half heartedly but the middle class, wow.
Daily I would get pounded into me how logic plays almost no role in the "thought" process.
As just one example, I remember people telling me that videos of empty hospital parking lots while the hospital was supposedly overflowing meant nothing.
So, yeah I became estranged from most of my friends. They got tired of me telling them it was all retarded and I lost respect for them and realized, like in China's cultural revolution, these were the people who would denounce me as a wrong thinker.
You are completely correct 👌🏻
It was and still is the greatest theatre show on earth, possibly ever, and a very dark one at that. It is a monumental battle of truth versus outright criminal and psychopathic lies. I pray that more people will awaken from the propaganda induced trance they remain in. There are some hopeful signs but it is not moving fast enough.
I totally agree Howard 🙌🏻
Great piece. I find it hard to connect with anyone until I know they opposed the narrative and didn't believe the lies. As a result I'm alone with the exception of my wife and daughter. I have nothing but contempt for my parents and siblings who refuse to question. I lost all friends and professional colleagues. Connecting virtually like this is reassuring. Good luck to you and the awake people in your life. Never forgive never forget.
Thank you Matthew. I understand that instinct, I also feel disconnected from friends and family who bought into it all and still do. I still love them but our relationship feels superficial because we inhabit separate realities, it’s sad.
Yes, it's superficial at best. We can talk about the weather and that's it. I'm originally from Vancouver Canada but moved to SE Asia in 2010 and while the scamdemic wasn't easy or fun to live through here, and I had to give up a good job when I passed on the jabs, I can still work and have a career. Waking up has improved my life in many ways and I wouldn't go back to believing the lies even if I could. It's a bit sad to think that I will never trust doctors or health systems again (with the exception of physical injuries obviously), I'ts also liberating to realize that the solutions are with myself and my health depends on my decisions, and I feel that I've made better ones since 2020. The other day found that one of my colleagues holds similar views and so even today I'm less alone. This colleague - she's from Kenya - and she shared the scamdemic experience of working in the poor slums of her hometown during the day and coming home at night to hear via the media that in the area where she had been there were so many cases and deaths, when she had been there all day and realized that the people there were completely unaffected by any of it. It's still incredible to me that the normies are unable to perceive the lies.
I got a link from James Delingpole to your article btw.
Wow thank you, really thrilled that James Delingpole shared it. Yes we have to learn to live in this new reality now which in many ways can be a lonely place but is also strangely liberating and even beautiful 🙌🏻
You sound a bit like me. I had ten siblings. One, the eldest, died in 2022. Of the rest only a couple listened to me, that's something I suppose. Yet those two seem to have gone back to sleep. The rest completely ignored my messages and videos, not even acknowledging me. One did briefly but I think out of pity for her "stupid sister" because she still refused to hear a word. I tried for 3 - 4 years!,They're a weird bunch. They had a family reunion six months ago which I did not attend because as I told one of my brothers, I didn't want to be around people who weren't living in reality. I have nothing to say to them. I am disgusted in their cowardice and willingness to accept all the lies. Everything! Without question. The sad thing is, my brother who died was the only one who did start talking about it with me. I just know we'd be on the same page if he was here. Like you, I don't want to be around those who still, to this day, refuse to admit what took place and act as if everything is fine. It's not fine. It's not over. Sorry this is so depressing but I guess you already know it's not over. I had been following these lunatics for many years before the "Covid" scam which is why I knew it was indeed a scam. They're bringing in full blown Communism to the world. Sneaking it in. This is biblical prophecy unfolding yet many or most won't see it. That itself is prophecy. That the majority won't see it. Please continue with non compliance. The next time we will all be locked out of the system completely. I urge you and all to prepare accordingly. This is already too long. Sorry. I don't know who believes what but I put this out there, hoping others can see the evil for what it truly is. No mainstream churches will help, they're all on board. They promoted the poison and push for the one world Government and one world Religion. Again, sorry, but everyone needs the truth. We are now in a world of lies, something else that was foretold. I wish you well.
Thank you Jennifer. So sorry that you lost your brother 😢 please don’t apologise for what you say or think it’s depressing, the truth is liberating, stay strong and truly you’re not alone ♥️
Thanks for your comment. While I'm not Christian there is no question that the stories of the bible and the life of Jesus prefigured many events and forces we now struggle with. I'm optimistic that when they try operations like the covid scam more and more people wake up. So they sneak it in as you say but that slows the pace of the changes leaving more opportunities to resist, evade and not comply.
Sorry for the loss of your brother.
Noncompliance is key.
Hi Jennifer, I am so sorry for the loss of your brother, but comfort in knowing that he rests in the bosom of Abraham, awaiting His glorious return.
You are not alone in this. My husband and I have been following the government's tyranny in all of its forms since the days of Clinton. Back then computers were still DOS and we did not have the Internet. We relied on short wave radio programs. The Internet (or "splinternet"as they now call it), has been both a curse and a boon. Information is more readily available, both good and bad. It's much harder to hide the devious, underhanded methods of the terrorists in office now.
One thing I have found helpful to go back to from time to time is Pam Gregory, "The Big Picture 2026 to 2027" on the dreaded YouTube. She's an astrologer, and quite encouraging. Nice to step away and see things unfolding in such calm and reassuring company.
My story too Trish. I would add though that standing by my values and losing access to just about everything ( one memory-walking with friends to the pub who were happy to go inside and drink without me because "PAPERS PLEASE") was the best.
My spine is stainless steel and I can see their fear with detachment and compassion and a growing love. But I'm not to be fucked with now. People feel it. I command way more respect than before the shit show military coup d'état.
Wow, beautifully said. Standing firm comes at a cost but it’s worth it for self respect and integrity. 💪❤️